Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet;
but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead,
I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God
(Philippians 3:13-14 NASB)
Personal Note – On Pause
December 18, 2010
Some who have been regular readers of my material probably have wondered why I have not posted
anything new for some time now.
A few months ago, I felt it was time to hit the pause button, metaphorically speaking, and take a break.
Simply, it was time to step aside for a bit to see if and what adjustments, corrections, and enlargements
the Lord might have for me, or if perhaps, He wants me to stop writing altogether. I still do not have an
answer to this last question.
I started writing about 20 years ago, which has intensified as the years have passed, especially in the
last 3 years; however, it has never been my intention to keep this thing going as if it were some special
“ministry.” My sole desire is to follow the Lord and to be doing and speaking what our Heavenly Father
is doing and speaking, for only in this way will I be of any service to my brethren in Christ.
Over the last 30 years, I have been most helped by others when they have shed some light on certain
matters, and this light has served as a springboard for me to study Scripture until it dawns upon my
own heart and becomes revelation. Perhaps I have been able to do this for some who have taken the
time to read my material. Only the Lord knows of what value these materials have been to others.
I feel like I have been wired by God to continually question what I believe and why, and, in so doing, I
believe He has given me increasing revelation in some areas; not all, mind you, just some. By
revelation, I do not mean some new unrevealed secrets of Scripture; I simply mean that light has been
shed on God’s Word and opened the eyes of my heart in some new way. Through this process, my
understanding of Scripture has undergone a number of enlargements and, frankly, corrections and
There have been times when I have headed down a certain path of understanding, thinking it to be
correct, only to have the Spirit of God convict me that something was off or amiss in it. This process of
correction and adjustment has often started with a groan deep within me, which has led me to cry out to
the Lord for answers. Even today, I have questions about some things I have written and continue to
inquire of the Lord for more light.
Teachers and expositors of God’s Word should humbly acknowledge that they don’t have all the
answers, and when they get off track in some area, they need to explain in what way the Lord has
adjusted, corrected, or enlarged them. Unfortunately, I have seen very little of this in many of the so-
called “ministries” of our day, as if the message has become crystallized or cast in bronze like a statue
readied for a museum.
As I have testified elsewhere, for a time I was headed down the road of ultra-dispensationalism,
especially in regard to the present-day state of Israel and Christian Zionism. I was failing to cast out the
bondwoman and her son as warned by Paul in his epistle to the Galatians (4:21-31). I have since
repented of such thinking and have attempted to correct this in my writings over the last several years.
Lord willing, I trust that I will be released to write on this once again, especially in regard to the true
nature of Zion. We have come to Mount Zion (i.e., New Zion) and to the city of the living God, the
heavenly Jerusalem (New Jerusalem) (Hebrews 12:22).
If we are looking to the present-day, earthly Jerusalem as to where God has placed His name, then we
have not cast out the bondwoman and her son. Jesus has promised His conquerors: “I will write on
him the name of My God and the name of the city of My God, New Jerusalem” (Revelation 3:12).
God has placed His name on His new temple, the conquering Body of Christ, the holy temple in the
Lord , the dwelling of God in spirit (Ephesians 2:21-22).
Back to my point; I have held for many years that we should never make one man’s (or woman’s)
teaching our primary source of spiritual food, and we should be very cautious of any man’s teaching
that has not changed in 20-40 years. We must challenge ourselves to personally search for the truth
and not simply take another man’s word as the final word on a subject.
We need to take in the Word of God and digest it for ourselves and not make a diet out of predigested
or, if you will, processed food. Just as the best foods for our natural bodies are whole foods, straight
from nature, without all the man-made additives and impurities, so it is with spiritual food. We need to
take in the pure Word, not one infected with the leaven of the traditions of men and their institutions and
denominations, falsely disguised as truth, that have crept in over time. Jesus warned His disciples to
beware of the leaven of the Pharisees (religious teachers). After all, a little leaven leavens the whole
lump (1 Corinthians 5:6). I might add that we also need to fast from spiritual junk food.
To this end, we must be diligent to guard our hearts from following every wind of doctrine, or, as Paul
warned, we need to guard ourselves from the systematizing of the deception (Ephesians 4:14 CV).
We all see in part and are prone to get off track in some area. I believe there should be growth and
increased revelation not only in one’s teaching or message, but more importantly, in every believer’s
walk with the Lord. Mind you, I am not implying that there must be growth and increase just for the sake
of it but rather as a result of continually seeking the Spirit of truth.
However, let us be ever mindful that we need to discover the Lord and His truth personally and
individually and experientially . If truth remains simply head knowledge, it will become either the
foundation of religion or the basis for pride. Look at what Christendom has become in our day!
Well, I leave you with this. If you feel led to pray for me, please pray that I will have the mind of the Lord
regarding whether I should continue to write and, if so, that I will have the anointing to do so.
The Upward Call: #04-10121
by: Stuart H. Pouliot